Amy Winehouse dead!!

 "Ehehehehehehehehe" - Peter Griffin

Finally that old skank kicked the Bucket, and no, I don't feel a bit of compassion for her or anyone related to her. Seventy-six People just died in Norway so I really don't feel any need to feel sad or anything for a stupid white-trash shrew that had more money than most of us do and got herself killed in the end.

Have a nice Weekend.

Love oh Love.....

Relationship problems, I guess we've all heard of them before, and I've always hated to read that kinda stuff anywhere, because I simply never had a relationship (forever alone?). But now (surprise surprise) I have a girlfriend and have one of those nasty problems myself...

Thing is, she is a bit older than me and therefore has a bit more experience than me, and, sadly, I envy her for being more experienced than me and therefore feel like an Idiot.
So what should I do now? I obviously have a huge problem with just ignoring it, because if I could, I wouldnt ask you guys for help...
So should I just leave her and try to sow my wild oat? But I don't want that, I want to be with her and not someone else.

Do you have any recommendations for me?

Also, I feel like a god damn Idiot for finally having a girlfriend and then destroying it all again by being a f*cking A**hole :(

The End of the Experiment

So that's it. I've made it through 5 days, Monday to Friday, partying on each and every one of them. Spent the last evening dancing in Munich's Kultfabrik, drank a lot and consumed some other things that were propably illegal - in short, I've done all the things you would usually ONLY do on weekends and did it throughout the entire week.

So do I feel better now? Or do I feel worse?
I think it's none of each. Of course, I felt pretty bad because of being ill for a few days, but that problem somehow solved itself (oh, the miracles of alcohol). I think I'm just gonna make a list, because that usually helps me think through stuff:


Positive:
-I've met a lot new Friends
-I have a girlfriend now
-That long lost feeling of rebellion



Negative:
-I feel really, really hungover, my body literally screams at me to stop drinking so much
-I lost my job (though I don't care really much since it sucked anyways)


So, afterall, going to parties each and everyday is great for socializing and for that good old, rebellious and adolescent feeling of "I don't f*ckin' care anyways", although you should watch out to not obviously act young if you're a bit older (because that just looks ridiculous), BUT you should not and must not in any way overdo it with this kinda behavior, some people can take it better than the other, but in the end, you will really just be hungover and will maybe lose something that means a lot to you...

So, I myself will now take a few days off partying this weekend, and then try and start into a normal life again.
Thanks for reading!

The Experiment - Day 4

Had a Buddy come over and drank a LOT of beer, like 4 liters each of us. After that I was like "Hey, I don't feel that bad anymore!", which was the worst decision of the day. Ended up going to a Bar with him and some other old friends, had even more Tequila.
Lurched back home in the morning, drank cough syrup and fell asleep.

Surprisingly I don't feel too bad, but maybe thats because I still feel pretty drunk. Stopped smoking since my throat feels like sandpaper. In the worst of moods. I'm propably going to drink even more today just so I can delay having to deal with the real world.

Now I'm going to get myself into bed, maybe everything will look better as soon as I get some sleep.


Cheers!

The Experiment - Day 3 (Sudden End?)

Went out to a Club and this time I can atleast remember what happened - stayed there drinking and dancing until 3 AM when we got kicked out. It was cold as f*ck outside, and since I forgot to take any Coat with me and I was covered in sweat I literally felt like freezing to death. Since there weren't any means of public transportation around and we didn't want to perish by cold me & my girl decided to take a taxi to the central station and wait there until we could take the train home. After some hours of sitting inside a Burger King Restaurant we finally made it home, and I just fell into bed and slept for a few hours straight.

In the morning I felt absolutely f*cking miserable, I wasn't hungover but my sinuses felt airtight and my tonsils swoll to the size of a grapefruit - time to see the doctor. Anyways, now I'm sitting here, taking antibiotics and telling my workplace that I'm still sick... I feel like this week is going to have a huge payback, but I don't care, I wanted to quit my job anyways.

Now I just wonder what I'm going to do in the evening, or if I can even carry on with this Experiment - maybe I'll just take a day off from partying. Propably I'll just have an old buddy come over and we'll spend the evening drinking a beer or two and smoking. Sounds healthy, huh?
Well, whatever happens - you guys will be the first to notice.

The Experiment - Day 2

Went to a House Party of some Guy I don't even know, actually I can't even remember where it was. Obviously drank way too much... the funny thing is, today I woke up in Bed with a girl I met at the party, but I can't remember how I got there. Anyways, we're planning to go out this evening to - guess what - go drinking.

Meanwhile I feel like the only thing that keeps me going is a combination of coffee, cigarettes and alcohol. Had to take a sip of whiskey in the morning to calm my stomach down, a weird feeling. It currently takes up my entire concentration just to be able to write this post...

Didn't go to work today, called in sick and luckily I don't have to go on Wednesday - it's my free day. Don't know whether thats good or bad, because when I know that I don't have to go to work I'm afraid I'm gonna overindulge myself and end up somewhere I don't want to be - but, well, this experiment has to be executed in its entirety.

The Experiment - Day 1

Today I started off with waking up at 3am in a train station after being out drinking with a few friends of mine, ended up going to a club on Sunday evening. Took a taxi home. After 4 hours of sleep I went to work being totally hungover and only had a coffee and a cigarette to calm me down...
After 7 Hours of horrible work I finally went to meet an old friend of mine, felt rejuvenated and fresh just after the first beer. Looks like I'll be out drinking today again. Smoked about half a pack of cigs just today.
Wish me Luck, I'll tell you how it went!